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6/04/2023
GRATITUDE
I will entering my 29th soon this year, I often asked myself, "What do you really want in life?"
I realize the path I stand on right now-is the path that accidentally just happened in my life. I never thought that I will got a job in my current occupation field. Never thought how my adult life will be.
I know, nothing happens by coincidence. Anonymous said as you start to walk the way, the way appears. That's what happened to me.
Completed my adolescence is a whole big relief for my mental health. That phase of storm just went by. I just started feel more likely "wise" in my life since the 27th came. My teenage life filled with my overthinking habit. But I'm proud as I still on the track.
Good job, myself for surviving on the right track, for becoming the person you are right now. You are enough as you are.
It is a gratitude, isn't it?
6/03/2023
DISTRACTION
So many ideas are flying on my mind right now.
Yeah, I don't know whether it is bad or good habit. Usually I can't keeping up with only one idea, and the next problem is I'm not easy to execute it. When I took one action, I can got easily distracted by other idea. So I didn't finish the first execution then I start to take action for another idea.
I keep thinking that there are better ideas.
I know...
Maybe it's not about get distracted by other things easily
Maybe it just hunger with other "more perfect" ideas.
As long as I'm not feeling enough to stop and stay in one idea, the distraction will always come.
5/31/2023
Kontemplasi
Kita sering lupa untuk benar-benar mengisi diri. Sibuk membenahi yang terlihat dari luar, pun yang bisa terdengar ke luar. Kita lupa merapikan realita, mengumpulkan pengakuan-pengakuan yang sebenarnya selebrasi saja.
Tik... Tok... Tik... Tok... Waktu terus berjalan, pun juga hidup. Usia bertambah, kedewasaan juga, semoga.
Kita sering terbuai untuk mencapai sesuatu "yang terlihat", dan melupakan bahwa sejatinya kemampuan yang sebenarnya-lah yang perlu ditingkatkan, tanpa embel-embel gelar yang melekat.
Kontemplasi belakangan ini menyadarkanku, bahwa aku lupa mengisi tangki upgrade diri-kau tau-upgrade kemampuan diri yang sesungguhnya. Yang ternyata, hal ini bisa didapatkan dari mana saja selama kita menghayatinya seperti itu. Ya, kita bisa belajar dari mana pun. Kesadaran "here and now" sangat dibutuhkan, hadir penuh di tiap momen kehidupan yang terjadi, fokus.
Menyadari bahwa apa-apa yang kita lalui di hidup ini tak sia-sia, tak berlalu begitu saja. Patut dijalani dengan kesadaran penuh.